I don't have dysphoria per say, but what I have is body dysmorphia. Body dysmorphia affects me in numerous ways. I'm scared of going out of the house (besides walks and my workplace) because I'm afraid people that I highly dislike will see me and laugh at me because I think I'm ugly, fat, boobs are too small, too hairy, or very puny and not muscular. I look at myself and all I see is a monster in the mirror. I see not only one specific flaw, but numerous flaws in my body. I go from shaving all of my body hair (still have my eyebrows; I just pluck them) to clipping my nails short, but not really short, or putting on makeup to cover up my ugliness. I also pick at my skin at times, because I don't think it should be there. I think what makes it worse is that I'm considered to be overweight and overfat, yet really obese people think I'm "skinny" and anorexics that loathe and obsess over my existence think I'm "morbidly obese" (even said I was SOOOOO fat near my face). Also actual obese people (different ones that actually hate me) said I had a flat chest (not true; I'm a 32d in one brand and a 34b in another, which is 36" bust, and considered average). At the same time, I do think they're too small because other women have like 44" busts, also they tell me I have no muscle whilst having anorexics and obese people claiming they have muscle even though the anorexics are just skeletons and the obese people are just fat. (not trying to be malicious; it's just that they literally are just bones or fat). I just hate having to look at the mirror, and I always avoid pictures because I'm afraid of I'm *insert flaw I have here*. Sorry that this is long, but I also thank you guys for spending the time reading this. /rant